i never know what to do sometimes
i worry too much
and i really need to stop



i dunno why i havnt been feeling so well latley
light headed
nausaus sometimes
numb other times

is something wrong with me?
i dunno


i feel like i should work on a new song or two...
try and clear my mind
i feel like... crying and fighting at the same time
and ive been having nightmares again...
that im being trapped
being choaked

sometimes i just... i dunno...



sometimes everything works out
and sometimes things dont...

i just wish i could clear my head.

wings

i never knew to expect this.
taeo messaged me, saying hes sorry, and saying that it was my fault...
fucking douche.
but what can you do?

ive been remembering a song i wrote, one that really reminds me of him.

and some changes too

guess its another day
where everything falls down
guess you dont have to say
you dont want me around
guess its the end of things
and this is what i've earned
i dont know anything
i guess i'll never learn

but i cant keep waiting
waiting for a change
and you'll keep on acting
acting so deranged
and you'll keep on saying
saying all your lies
and i'll keep on trying
trying to find out why.

guess things were never true
guess i was unaware
thought that i needed you
though you were never there
guess i was blind back then
i didnt understand
that all i needed was
someone to lend a hand

but i cant keep waiting
waiting for a change
and you'll keep on acting
acting so deranged
and you'll keep on saying
saying all your lies
and i'll keep on trying
trying to find out why.

you know i cant keep waiting
i need to spread my wings
and i cant keep pacing
its time im running free
and i guess i loved you
and i want you in my life
but i need my freedom
and you caused me too much strife

but now im done my waiting
cause you will never change
and you'll keep on acting
acting so deranged
and you'll keep on saying
saying all your lies
and i guess im saying
saying my last goodbye.