i've been thinking a lot
what do i want to do with my life?
right now im sitting at aubreys computer, writing. someone is singing falsetto upstairs (thank god im downstairs)

i dont think im ready to go back to school yet.
i still dont know what i actually want to do with my life yet, and i dont want to throw away money trying to figure it out.
i dont wanna go to school just to impress my family.
im actually happy working retail. is that so hard to believe?


on other news: i see my mum for the first time since i moved out. im actually scared.
will she comment on the fact i've gained some weight?
will she ask me about school?
will she tell me i shouldnt be happoy with where i am right now?

i'm happier than i have ever been.
i just hope she can see that.